Is Spring Break Over?

September 9, 2015

Please tell me you can relate to this.  I’ve had times where I know I *should* talk to someone.  But I put it off.  And the longer I put it off, the more *awkward* it can feel.  So I put it off some more.  And then I have to decide if I’m going to buck up and start the conversation or just let it go.  Maybe forever.

In my experience, starting the conversation, no matter how awkward, is always the right decision.

That’s what I’m doing.  Right now.  With you.  I’m starting, or rather, re-starting a conversation.

Last winter and spring I gained ground on blogging consistently.  And my meanderings were striking a chord with some of you. (Thank you for the feedback.)

Then, near the end of March, the gymnastics school where I work part-time was closed for a week for spring break.  Since my husband is a CPA, there was no chance of going to the beach.  It would be a great opportunity to write!  And since God had inspired me with many topics to write about (all neatly written down in my journal), I could (gasp) work ahead on blog posts.

So I sat down to write.

And got a little squeamish.

The topics I’d written down were a bit…, well…, personal.  And besides that, I was a bit… shall we say… frustrated with God right about that time.

I did what any insecure writer would do.  I declared I was taking the week off from writing because it was spring break.

And I haven’t written since.

Until now.

Seriously.

I recently read the book of Jeremiah.  When I read God’s words to Jeremiah in 1:5-10, I felt like he was saying them to me. In verse 6, Jeremiah says, “O Sovereign Lord, I can’t speak for you.  I’m too young!”

Well, I’m not too young.  But I always feel too (fill in the blank).  Depending on the day, I can feel too tired, too vulnerable, too confused, too …  But it usually boils down to feeling too afraid to put into print what God shows me and teaches me.

God responds to Jeremiah in verse 7. “Don’t say ‘I’m too young (or insecure, or whatever),’ for you must go wherever I send you and say whatever I tell you.  And don’t be afraid of the people, for I will be with you and will protect you.  I, the Lord, have spoken!”

Then God reached down and touched Jeremiah’s mouth and said, “Look, I have put my words in your mouth!”

I can honestly say I do not feel called by God to go to kings and leaders and rebuke or warn them like he asked Jeremiah to do. But I do feel compelled to share what God has placed on my heart.

As much as I’m sometimes nervous and a bit fearful about putting myself “out there” on this blog or when I speak to a group, I have something that makes me even more anxious:  I don’t want God to stop putting words in my mouth.

I love gaining insights from the Holy Spirit.  I love wrestling with things until I grow closer to God through it.  (Let me clarify — I don’t *love* the wrestling part.   I*love* the growing closer to God part.)

So I’m back.  I’m starting a new conversation with you, because apparently, spring break is over.

Hello, friend.  I’m Danita.  Would you like to join me at the table for some conversation?

 

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8 Comments

  • Jan Michelle Glass

    Thank you for blogging this. I have truly been wrestling with conversations that I know, needed to happen. I treded into a few these last few weeks, and I am glad I did. Thank you for sharing Jeremiah, the strength you found in it, is the strength I needed to hear as well. I still am learning where to go in the bible. God bless you. I’m glad your spring break is over….you have a gift. It was missed. 🙂

    September 9, 2015 at 5:27 am Reply
    • Danita

      Thank you for stopping by and telling me about your ventures into difficult conversations, Jan Michelle! Hope you heal quickly, girlfriend.

      September 9, 2015 at 8:51 pm Reply
  • Jen

    welcome back. I’m glad to be here in your space again.

    September 9, 2015 at 7:54 am Reply
    • Danita

      Thank you, Jen!

      September 9, 2015 at 8:51 pm Reply
  • Connie

    Happy you are back from Spring Break!! You were missed. Thanks for your comments today, they did hit home!!!

    September 9, 2015 at 1:48 pm Reply
    • Danita

      Connie, Your support is so very important to me. Thank you for reading and sharing. We sometimes feel like no one could possibly understand how we feel, and then we find out we’re really pretty normal. It’s good to journey through life together.

      September 9, 2015 at 8:54 pm Reply
  • Angie

    Most definately!

    September 9, 2015 at 8:03 pm Reply
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